I'm not too sure why I am no longer able to view my pictures on Imageshack. Does anyone know why?

Grrr. It's annoying.

Just hold me close to you...

I'm feeling great right now. I'm loving my new journal too. Thank youu. (:

I went to Orchard library for the first time ever just now. Although I didn't quite make it to the study or the books section, we [my cs1105 groupmates and I] were at the Cafe, just discussing our project. The meeting was short - took less than an hour but we spent the rest of the time talking about our past years at JC or for them, before they moved here, when they were still in China.

Anyhoo, yeh. Just feeling darn good. Must be because Ki's looking healthier. You know, she was always my study partner? Every night, without fail, she'd be somewhere nearby, falling asleep in all sorts of peculiar poses. I miss her, I love her.

Such a lovely place,
Such a lovely face.

Her mind is tiffany-twisted, she got the mercedes bends
She got a lot of pretty, pretty boys, that she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard, sweet summer sweat.
Some dance to remember, some dance to forget.

Yesterday night we went out together as a family for dinner. It's reallyy funny. Noreen suggested going to Jalan Kayu but I protested because I was having a stomach ache so I wanted to go somewhere nearby - Abah decided on Changi Airport but every restaurant there was wayy too crowded so we ended up eating at Macs. By that time, my stomach ache was gone so we decided to go for a drive all the way to Seletar [near Jalan Kayu] and we detoured back to Pasir Ris Park before reaching home at nearly midnight.

Oh my dad is a HUGE Eagles fan. He kept playing Hotel California in the car yesterday. Like, really several times!

I slept with Noreen last night. I didn't dare sleep alone. Not going to say why here but some things really spooked me and I'm still very spooked right now and I hate this feeling but I think I'll be bunking in with her again tonight.

Kiki went for the dialysis again this morning. The vet said she's doing well but please continue to pray for her.

You knoww..I'm really touched when people actually ask me about her. Haha, my baby whaat.

"Masih Ada Harapan" meeting at Muhammadiyah just now.

East Coast. East Coast. East Coast. Can anyone not love the beach?

"Teroka Seni" meeting tomorrow, Computing module meeting tomorrow.

I wonder when I'll actually work on my PS essay. Heh.

The barbeque
Cookin' everything from butts to guts -- and sometimes nuts.

Firstly, I gotta say that this is a really picture-heavy post. So if you're not interested, don't bother scrolling down, lol. It's just how we spent today as a family - preparing a barbeque dinner. =)

So that's us at the supermarket. The lion dance troop..my sister is terrified of them. She has this strange phobia. When they passed by, she was hiding behind all of us, her face red, making weird noises that sounded like little screams and she was tearing up. Kesian right?! But yeah. She's always had a phobia of lion dance troops. It was especially funny just now because when they passed, we were actually in the middle of a dispute over what items to get and when they did pass and she started her reaction, we all stopped and started laughing. Hahah.


Yeah. We've been busy. My eldest sister is the Master Chef in our house. She comes up with all these incredible, fabulous recipes and we just savour the outcome. And see! I tried to help! "Ok Ira, you sayang the chicken enough already." And she gave me this LOOK when I suggested removing the skin so we could have skinless chicken. Haha.



Do the pictures make you hungry? It made me! I was wondering how anyone can cook when I was already so tempted to start eating. First one is the fruit salad, second one the marinated chicken and the third, bee hoon in the making!

Ok sidetrack! That's Kiki's medicine. So kesian, right? But we managed to hide it within her food and she ate it all up. =D Good girl!



Anyway, the barbeque itself started at 8pm:



Presenting the Master Chef.. & Miran tried to grill his papadom!




"Get me a bucket of water, just in case!"
"No but look! There's a pond!"
[I swear, the kids had more fun messing about.]








Baby Ismail, Amir, Amirah. [Amir and Amirah are twins! Adorable, huh? =)]



Happy faces, happy stomachs. =)

Yepp, that's about it. Lovely day for a barbeque, though it was a VERY spontaneous decision. But I think everyone had fun and it gave us a great chance to just meet up and spend some time together before they went back to KL. If it had been one day earlier, Myrza and his family would have been able to join us but he's gone back to Perth so OH WELL.

Maybe next time we'll get Azmir AND Myrza. [Azmir, you hearread?!]

So much for losing weight with that jog this morning. Was it only this morning? Sheesh.

Auf Wiedersehen! =)

I actually managed to drag my lazy bum out of bed this morning for an invigorating jog. =D I'm trying to keep this up, kays? Haha it was funny because my mom walked while I jogged and halfway, I met her again [we were moving towards each other] and when she saw me, she just turned around and started walking back happily as though she had been ahead of me all along while there I was, trying my best not to call it quits. Hahah. I didn't jog that much though, I was reluctant to move off initially - we were just walking together at first, talking.






So then after that, we came home to a yummy breakkie. Kacang pool! But my mom's not allowing me to eat eggs! She says [k this might be gross!], she says that patients abstain from eggs after a surgery to prevent pus or something so I should abstain too until my complexion clears. Grrr. Then she decided, very kindly, that I could just take the egg whites not the yolk but I wanted the yolk because it looked so runny! I like to mix the yolk with whatever I'm eating. Haha!

Kiki seems alot better today. I suppose it's because of the dialysis. My mom predicts she'll feel worse tomorrow and on Tuesday, she'll be getting the drip again so she might perk up then. Please please please pray for my cat. I know she has to go someday. Just let it be as painless as possible for her.



Yesterday I was supposed to study but I was hardly able to concentrate. Was too worked up over Kiki. I had retail therapy [well, just ONE scarf from Accessorize] and comfort eating instead. Hurray to Mrs Field's and her goodies. Heh.

Yesterday night, my relatives came over. Soo kecoh! Haha. I kinda miss my cousins. I wish we could all go on another holiday to somewhere far away and really fun. Now everyone's spread out all over the world what with their studies and stuff and goodness knows when we'll ever meet up as one big gang again. One of my cousins just got engaged recently and my sisters and I couldn't make it. I know we're not close as cousins since she lives in Malaysia but STILL.

I wonder if we're going out later... gonna disturb Noreen. She's still in bed, can you believe that?!

How do you choose when your heart is breaking?

Kiki has kidney failure. Just now, at the vet, it was the closest I had ever come to breaking down over Kiki. It was the first time too that I saw my mom get really close to crying over her.

I really don't know what I'll do when she's not in my life anymore. Do you think it's silly to be so worked up over an animal? Well, screw you. I've had her my entire life. She's 17 years old. The vet said that's already admirable because most cats live to only about 15.

But she's a great cat, you know? She's already losing weight, her kidneys are functioning at about 35%. That's what the vet suspects. Over the course of the next few days, we'll have to see if she eats and takes her medicine [5 tablets daily] then if she responds well, her kidneys are still functionable and she might just survive for a few more months. If not, it'll just be a few weeks.

It was horrible at the clinic. Seeing her suffer through the drip and the kidney test injection. Seeing how scared and confused she looked.

I just hope we're never faced with the decision of putting her to sleep.

Oh man..

My darling Kiki is sick. =(. Not AGAIN, you know? She's having the same problem she had last time - something to do with the urine, a kidney infection. The vet cured her several months ago [almost a year, in fact] when it first happened but now.. She's already so skinny and frail, I don't know how many more medications she can take. =(.

My mom told me she just hopes, that when it's time for Kiki to die, it'll be peaceful and swift - she hopes Kiki won't suffer from a long illness, unlike Ringo, my sister's cat. She also hopes we won't have to discover that at the vet and be faced with the decision of having to put Kiki to sleep.

All that aside, my mind's messed up all over again. Which do you think is more important in a relationship - having common values or shared interests? You know, the funny thing is that the two should go hand in hand. How can you have similar interests with different values?

Yesterday night was fun. Malam pentas II. I wasn't supposed to go, but when we had to drop my sister off around the area, I decided to drop by. I felt really smelly ok! Hadn't even showered and what-not. I reached at almost 9. =P.

K, off to the vet...

Wish Kiki luck k.

Sometimes Vix thinks when the Big Four-O comes along, she'll get an envelope from some exotic place and inside will be an airline ticket and a note - Come celebrate with me. Gus will say, "Go..don't worry about the kids." So she'll go. Caitlin will meet her at the airport, her hair flying in the wind. After they hug, Vix will hold Caitlin at arm's length for a minute. God, Caitlin, she'll say, You look so... grownup.

And Caitlin will laugh and answer, It's about time, don't you think?



- Picture taken during my walk outside, words from "Summer Sisters", Judy Blume.

Funny stuff.

We said that we were going to study hard,
we held our books instead of hands,
she held a blanket over cans of beer,
I can't deny I was so full of fear.

It's been a tiring past couple of days. German test was o-kay. I didn't study for it at all. I could probably do a lot better if i had studied but all the pressure was catching up to me. But it's okay..

On Monday, I stayed in school til pretty late - it was raining til around 7 + and my sister offered to pick me up [she was from SIM] around 10 so I decided to wait for her. Managed a quick catch-up with Shaza and gave her a lift home too. (:

I'm a little hungry right now. I shouldn't be - we had a great dinner thanks to my sis who brought home a lot of food of different variety.

Am tired but will fight on..It's only for a few more days anyway.

I see so much magic but I missed it at that time.

I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment i am happy.



Today I met someone who made my day. Bumped into a girl I used to tutor at Pertapis. She did really well for her O levels - she got 12 points! I'm really happy for her. It couldn't have been easy studying amidst all the upheavals - I remember tutoring there really inspired me.

Now I feel a little sad. I will always remember the little guy and his one handed-handstand and the bruise on his head because he was trying to copy his older brother in a break dance move. I will always remember him pressing the horn in my mom's car [while I was showing him the different parts of the car..part of his Malay vocabulary test] and being so startled that he ran out of the car. I will remember him crying over his spelling. I will always remember him walking quickly [no running along the corridor, of course] carrying that schoolbag that seems so much bigger than him, taking out his tiny spectacles from their case and wiping them carefully and how cute he looked when his brow was all furrowed in concentration over his Math.

My goodness, listen to me. I sound so in love with him, haha. But really. They're so lovable.

I wish you were here..

I like what I've done to this picture. =)

Superman: Listen, what do you hear?
Lois Lane: I don't hear anything.
Superman: I hear everything. You wrote that the world doesn't need a savior, but every day I hear people crying for one.

- picture taken at East Coast

THURSDAY. Finally.

One test down, yay!

I really really hope to do well in PS. Alot of people have been telling me how alot of people gave up on their PS majors after taking a level two module and I can really see why!

But I really hope to do well in it. It's interesting and although half the time, I'm afraid to speak up for fear of saying something stupid - soon, I'll be brave enough. Okay? Okay.

I've never really had a problem speaking up in class before on something I have an opinin on until now. It's practically a phobia, and everyone seems to think so fast! While I'm still formulating an opinion on something and trying to come up with the suitable words, someone else has voiced something else in a manner that is waayy better than I can ever come up with and the discussion flows in another direction.

Maybe I should have the words "Give me a chance!" emblazoned on my t-shirt or something.

On Saturday is the "Art of Making a Great Impression Workshop." I can't wait for that! It's the second workshop they're holding for this semester alone - that's how popular it is - so I'm really glad I got a space this time. (:

1. German test tomorrow

2. Workshop on Saturday

3. German test next Tuesday

4. Nation Building test next Wednesday

Everyone knows I'm in over my head

I think he makes me happy, yes he does..

It's been a great day but I'm feeling pretty beat right now. Spent alot today too! The climax being an early lunch at Breeks Cafe, Marina Square.

Oh - how could I forget? Had red highlights done a few days ago. They're really bright that they're almost pink and the colour tends to run a little when I'm just out of the shower. I was kinda hoping for a more subtle red but hey, this looks okay too. (:

I hope.

Please please please don't laugh when you see me. *crosses fingers*

And you know, now I really hope to be able to do well in Political Science. The upper years all speak really well - I love the way they are able to put across their points so smoothly while at the same time, they're forces to be reckoned with. The Globalization and Politics module seems pretty intimidating at this point in time, but hopefully..in time, it'll all turn out well. Insya'allah.